never good enough
I love my family and all, but sometimes they really, really piss me off. My sister always bashes on my friends. theyre snobby, stuck up, dumb, stupid. I mean I dont insult her friends, and plus nobodys perfect. And my parents seemed to find things to complain about...if its not school, its chores, if its not chores, its dieting. And I mean, I think I have the best friends ever. Both rachel and Jess are really great ppl and I know they know that. anyways, I am sooo bored. I wish Jess would get home so we could do sumthing. hmmmmmm. ok.

GREAT WEEKEND!!!
Wooow. wat a great weekend I had. I went with my parents to my sister's bff's wedding up in the bay area and it was soooo nice. It was different for me b/c I had never been to a Catholic wedding, but it was beautiful. While I was sitting there I was totally picturing when Jess and Rachel get married and the ugly dresses they're gonna make me wear (hehehe jk). The reception was at this bed 'n' breakfeast in the middle of nowhere (I didnt even have reception on my cell). They had Italian food and it was really, really good. I danced w/ my sis and her friends and Lisa's bf was dancing w/ me and it was really funny. there were these guys my age there, and they were kinda cute but my mom was like, "Alie, go dance w/ them." but they werent dancing and I didnt want to ask them. I woulda danced w/ them if they had asked me. Anyways, Monday was my bday and we went to San Fran to go shopping. I think I spent more money then I had gotten from my family, but oh well, I got a lot of cute stuff. I got this shirt from Urban Outfitters and it says "Idaho, no Udaho". I had to get it, it was so funny. We flew home at 720 and when I got home there were two messages; 1 from rachel saying "happy bday", and 1 from my grnnyho, she thought I was turning 16 (well she has missed a year of my life b/c shes pretty much ditched us :( ). anyways, when I went upstairs theres was a message from Jess telling my to go into my backyard. when I went outside there were balloons, a huge handmade card, homemade cake, and a gift for me. It was soooo nice, I seriously almost cried (hehehe). then I got the cobra golf clubs from parents aqnd theyre really nice, but theyre so prettyi I dont wanna use them. This weekend was sooo great and even though I am not feeling good today, I am sooo happy.

great end to a so so day.
I was so nervous about getting my AP scores that I woke up early and paid $15 to get them. I got a 3 on APUSH but only a 2 on english. I was really disappointed that I only got a 2 and I wonder how close I was to a 3. My mom said that the fact that I got a good SAT 2 and I passed my AP test is a a sign that History is the perfect subject for me to study. I met my mom and sister for lunch at In-n-out and that was really good. I was feeling really tired and bummed out when I got home, then I got the mail... my grades came....I GOT A 4. FREAKING O!!!!!! this is the first time that I've gotten a 4.0. My mom is so proud of me that we're going to dinner tonight. I am so happy b/c now I feel like I have a chase to get into the college I want to. yaaaaaa Alie feels great right now!!!!.

Pretty good sunday :)
Today was a pretty good day. Went to church and then to Mission Valley. It was cool b/c I was home at 130 so I went to the store w/ jess and then we went to the pool. It was sooo fun just to hang out and talk, we hadn't done that in a long time. Now I am just really relaxed and enjoying my break. I am a little sad b/c I missed rachels message ask if I want to go see Triple Expresso and I really wanted to go :(. Oh well, maybe we can go when jess gets back from NYC. I think I might have to play w/ my mom in a tournement tomarrow. Ok well, the food is ready I better go.

I wanna have fun!!!
I have the sudden urge to just throw a great party. I dont know why...I just want to. I plaining to have a bday party on the 26th so keep your schedule clear 8-). I also figured out wat I wanna do when I turn 21. Since only acouple of/ my friends won't be 21 until later in the year (ehem...jess), I want to go on a cruise to mexico. Don't think that would be fun? I think it would be. Anyways I have to go to dinner with my family tonight to celebrate me and my grams bday. It should be interesting since we neber even see her. hopefully everyone behaves. I think I am gonna get a bunch of money, but thats ok w/ me since i am going to Fricisco (san fran) next week. Ok well I better go get a shower, I stink from my softball game, which we lost :( oh well.
<3 Alie

relaxing summer day
Today was a pretty nice day. I woke up when I felt like waking up, watched a movie, went to lunch, then I went to golf w/ my dad. I totally blew it when I was at the range b/c we saw a girl who's on the SDSU team and she left b4 I could talk to her about the team. Oh well, the good thing is that I fixed my swing. My sis and I met my mom downtown and we went to the "Scrapbooking Expo". That was pretty interesting. It was packed with soccer moms and fat ladies. I think I only saw 1 guy there. We got a lot of stuff and our vacation albums should be cool. Anyways tomarrow I am getting my hair colored so ya'll can call me a blonde again...even though I'll never really be one.
<3 Alie

Bad Round :/
I played golf again today, but I played really bad. I know Bonita is way easier than EastLake, but for some reason I always play aweful there. I felt bad for my dad because he tries so hard, but its never quite good enough. Plus I hate seeing him get mad. Not only is it embarrasing, but it does not good for his game. The waterpark was really fun yesterday, especially when Jess pulled an "Alie" and hurt herself getting out of the raft. I went to the movies w/ my parents when I got home and while in the movie I think I kinda had a panic attack. It really bugs me cuz theres really nothing for me to be panicted about. And now my parents are acting all wierd around me, always asking me if I am ok and it quite honestly makes me feel worse. I have a great family and the best friends ever. The only thing that I could think of is that I want a bf. I almost feel like I might be afraid of being alone and I am afraid of getting rejected. I know I am a pretty outgoing girl but when it comes to guys I want to be aproached, not the other way around. Anyways, it'll all work out. and I just need to remember that theres somebody for everybody...I just haven't found him yet.

Best score ever!!!
I went golfing today. I shout a 101 and thats my best score ever. I would have been really happy if I had broken 100, but I am still pretty happy. Plus my dad only beat me by 5. I'll beat him next time. I am going to Jess' to go swimming and I am planning on laying out cuz i need some more color. That should be fun. Well its time to go.
<3 alie

Bored already
Its only 4 days into break and I can already tell I am gonna be bored. My dad is off all this week so I know hes gonna make me golf, but I just wanna hang out with my friends. Of course jess is so lazy we'll never do anything:-/. Oh well, Ill crack her and we'll have fun. I got back from Palm Springs last night and it was pretty fun. It woulda been more fun if jess could of gone. Andrea had Carly and Gina and i was alone. Its ok. I'll get her next time. I really miss him (if you dont know "him" is then you dont need to know). I was just so scared that I would get rejected. I really want a bf. Sometimes I feel like the odd man out and I really want to feel the embrace of him. I know hes not perfect, but he's just fine for me. The good thing is, is that I think he works at the golf course and hes going to Southwesstern, so I might see him around. I think Jess and I might hangout together tonight. It feels like ages since we've done anything. We have to start planing out our lil scrapbook.